It is with the most profound serendipity that I answer this question on this day @ 6:28 am, Taurus rising. Today December 8th, 2009 is the day of Abandon. Which is the basis for an even greater theme. However in answering the question, Why Astrology? It is the days meditation that focuses my thoughts.
“ The soul must be freed, whatever the cost”. this meditation exemplifies why I became an Astrologist. When I was younger, I toyed with the idea of becoming a psychologist. I wanted to know why people did what they did. What phobias or schisms they suffered from and the like.
After a while it occurred to me, that by the time a client got to me, the damage was already done. To “fix” them would require great effort on my part and on the part of the patient who is hard pressed to self-diagnoses and treat. In fact the term patient already seemed distasteful to me. Subsequently I knew drugs would have to control a damaged spirit, where meditation should suffice. I however grew up in the bush (Panama) and was more holistic (shamanistic) than modern practices. I fully subscribe to the notion, “ an ounce of prevention, is better than a pound of cure”.
So instead of psychology , I picked engineering as a career path. Believing that the invention of things would bring me greater satisfaction. Beside people were too duplicitous, saying one thing and doing another. No value in the stock, bad investment (of time).
After reaching the age of Independence with my studies on track. I had yet other obstacles, a social life. I needed help. To the rescue I discovered in B&N, “ The secret Language, of Birthdays” in the Astrology section. I slowly became a student of Astrology.
At first like any real science I approached it with a sense of skepticism, looking for flaws in the logic. I used myself as a barometer, knowing that I always knew my own truth. Well it passed. I used it as a measurement against those that I knew and dated. It passed as well. It was fun and helped when I needed to “break the Ice” with a new date.
Later I put astrology to a more practical use, to what amounts to the practice of Soul Mapping, the art of mindfulness, At first I didn’t know that was what I was doing. It just started with a question. Why did I fail at..? What, I failed at wasn’t really the point, the objective was, what within my personality caused me to fail at that particular thing. For if I didn’t get to the root of the problem, then weed it out, surely it would cause me to fail at any other endeavor that I encountered. I’m tired of failing. Astrology was invaluable help in that recognition process.
To map one’s soul, to be mindful. Takes ardent vigilance, brutal honesty, plodding will power and the most extreme patience. with one’s self.
When all these components are up and running then thoughts begin to crystalize within your mind and a light is turned on, leading down a path. I will take courage and faith to walk the path, for the path is yours and yours alone. Frightening..not so much. But it does require one to constantly look at the “Man in the mirror”. Sadly many are afraid to look at their own flaws, they are rife you know.
“A man has many skins in himself, covering the depths of his heart. Man knows so many things; he does not know himself. Why, thirty or forty skins or hides (years), just like an ox’s or a bear’s, so thick and hard, cover the soul. Go into your own ground and learn to know yourself there”. (Eckhart)
It took me twenty years to know myself. It took another twenty years to know how to apply myself to the collective consciousness. I credit astrology, the psychology of the Universe, for setting my Sol free. Allowing me to see the face of God.
Astrology has allowed me the tools that I need to start a business without being stressed. Knowing that “strength of vision is important, but so is the ability to see things as they really are”. The Day of Confidence.
Astrology has taught me to embrace all of me, especially the flaws for they help define us (Divine US). Our flaws keep us in touch with our humanity and teaches compassion for one another. Altruism, Love.
For Love hath reason, that Reason doth not know.
God rests in Reason.
God moves in Passion.
