Regis-Renee. The Ruler Reborn under a Libran Sun

“Trust someone not for what they say, but because , like a bridge , you can venture out on them without fear of collapse” .

On the Day of Essential judgement. To day the number is &. Oct. 16, 1+6=7.

As with all of my Journeys I begin on the Monsoon. Sailing upon the back on my Manta, playing my flute . With the Nymphs in tow. Letting Neptune marvel at the power of Bliss. The Bliss of Love. Zeus Electirfied his trident. and blessed the crownde su Primo. Feroz the First GOD of the Thirteenth Generation X. G.O.D.= Guardian Of the Divine.

Yesterday the Magik within me manifesting itself in the form of the bond book form of Fabutron, written by Feroz. I was so overwhelmed I was tired. I went back to sleep, after a brief smile.

Later, my pride took over me and I put an entry onto my facebook page and then now on here. Oh don’t forget the numerous YouTube recordings that I made. But to top it all off ... I became an applicant for the S.I.B.L. , The Science , Industry and Business Library, a division of the NYC public Library.

I wasted no time putting up a profile. I wasted no time informing Facebook. I was / am a frenzy of activity. It’s the Libra energy that’s driving the forces within me.

Uranus is back in Libra as it was on the day of my birth. The other day was october 14, I was exactly 41yrs. 5 mos. 14 days Old on this day. More or less 5’s across the board, contrary to 10/10/ 2010. Well 5’s just mean that i’m half way there, I can settle for that, ATLEAST I’m NOT a THREE...Ugh ??... ROFL... well a three is good if YOU have to be a three. I mean I was a three.. but not for long.. . Anywho...

In my Chart this day (10/16/2010)is all about Uranus, which is the ever Mutable force (Gemini, Pisces, Virgo, Sagitaurius) a Emerald Gem that is core to the uniqueness within me.

That part of me that is always looking for change (Mercury, Neptune) ...looking for improvement (Virgo, Taurus) allowing the Rooster to Cry on this night where the moon is more than Half full. Bringing forth the Face of Bastet, The new face of Diana. Light winning out from the darkeness.

Applying Uranus Sextile Pluto

@ 10/16/2010 @8:33 pm

This transit suggests the emergence of movements for social reform and change. People are strongly motivated to change attitudes toward traditional values and they will crusade actively for this.

Uranus in sextile (within 2.7 degrees) with Neptune

The planetary energies flow together, open into new possibilities, new connections. This aspect gives a future oriented and idealistic individual, very aware of collective energies. This is a generational aspect, which many of your contemporaries will share with you.

You may feel a pull to the service of humanity at large. You are likely to be interested in mysticism and the occult. You may also be inclined to nervousness (especially if Uranus makes close aspects to the 'personal' planets in your chart).

You may feel some sense of confinement or restriction in the freedom to be who you want to be. Social ideals will strongly affect the expression of your individuality.

** Uranus harnassing the Piscean Energies of the Old Age. Neptune harnassing the Energies of a New Age. Generation X **

Feroz

Uranus in Libra (0° Lib 07'R) Uranus in the Seventh House

The following paragraph emphasized:Uranus in Libra (or the seventh house) gives an individual who is independent and original in the expression of artistic impulses and relationships. You are a lover of harmony and beauty, and you express this love in your own unique manner. You do not subscribe to a conventional sense of the aesthetic, but are always breaking new ground.

You are idealistic and philosophical, and you have a restless interest in new forms of stimulation. There can be problems with marriage in that partners may find you alternately affectionate and uninterested. You are likely to seek a rather unconventional relationship, which allows room for growth on both sides.

You need more space in relationship than most, and search for a partner who understands that, and has his or her own unique life perspective. You may also bring new concepts to the area of partnership. Part of your purpose in this life may be the transformation of the partnership energy into a new mode of being that can serve your own interest as well as enliven and invigorate your partner.

Pluto in Virgo (22° Vir 30'R) Pluto in the Seventh House

Pluto in the Seventh House (or sign) gives you a focus on forming close emotional attachments. You may have difficulties in marriage and partnerships; but there are also great rewards to be gained in this area. You may feel a compulsion to be liked by others. Conversely, you can also become involved in power struggles with partners.

You have a depth of passion within you that isn't obvious or recognized, and you may seek to project this power drive onto a relationship partner, rather than directly own up to it. You may therefore find yourself in relationship with dark or manipulative personality types, who may exhibit openly the tendencies you have yourself at a more hidden level.

You are likely to go through many changes in your relationship dynamic, as you come to understand more fully your inner process. You may exhibit strong attractions toward close involvement with another person, and simultaneously have fears regarding such attachments.

Time and moving through the fir! es of difficulties may lead you to a painful re-examination of your goals in these areas. Wisdom is required in the handling of close relationships in order to transform the partnership energy into a growing and conscious act of sharing, and to find your own inner strength independent of others around you.

Pluto in Virgo (or the sixth house) gives you an intense desire to be of service in the world. This desire can take the form of a compulsion to help others in a way that may not truly be appreciated by the intended beneficiaries. You are slightly obsessed with finding the purity inherent in human activity, and may well be a champion of the environmental movement, or exert yourself strenuously in your job or home setting.

You may also become intensely concerned and perhaps even chronically worried over health issues, or you may be apt to stress over organizational detail where the intention is to purify the function of the particular activity, but where attending to the details can become an end in itself. You may go through many profound changes of attitude in these areas, in order to learn how to be of actual service to yourself and others.

Creative outlets for your passion might be found in the helping professions, or in working on your own issues in such a way as to regenerate your values and life direction.

When you have transformed in these areas you can become a beacon for others to follow. By staying true to your own inner guidance system, you make it possible for others to also, and further the cause of a more self-aware and wisely functioning planetary society.

(by Henry Seltzer @ Astrograph)

Remembering that all this is transpiring under a Libra Sun with both Venus and Mars in Scorpio. These are the energis assialing my soul at the moment. However the Mercurial sole dispositor which rules my chart has things well in had allowing the Taurus to relax, and not work SO hard. Allowing the moon of the Bulls eye to finally shut. So ended the Age of Taurus.

Gemini goes to work to usher in the Age of Aquarius. As Pisces continues to flow forth toward the great spill of the Water Bearer.

The Sole Dispositor of your chart is Mercury in Gemini

(11° Gem 31')

The Sole Dispositor helps form your core personality, it ultimately rules all the other planets of your chart:

Mercury in Gemini gives a keen, alert and expressive mentality. You have great versatility, and can take up many different skills. You love variety in your life. You are constantly perceiving the world around you, and relaying your perceptions to your mind.

You approach mental pursuits in an intellectual rather than a practical way, and tend to prefer breadth in these matters to depth. You speak rapidly and well, and enjoy conversation with many different types of people. You are restless and can be prone to anxiety. Beware of stress to your nerves. It is beneficial for you when you cultivate periods of inner stillness.

Mercury in the Third House represents a strong mentality with an innate awareness of intellectual matters. You possess a keen, alert and expressive mind. You love variety in your life, and have great versatility along with a capacity to take up many different skills. You constantly perceive the world around you, and everything your awareness touches becomes a field for your intellectual attainment.

Your approach to mental pursuits is abstract, rather than practical, and also may be surface-oriented rather than deep and philosophical. You may appear restless or high-strung. You excel at written communication, and you also speak rapidly and well, and enjoy conversation with many different types of people.

The world of information and information-exchange affords you endless pleasure. An inveterate generalist, you profit from narrowing your focus and concentrating on a particular area. It also benefits you to you cultivate periods of inner stillness.

Yod, focal planet Moon.

A Red Moon. The Apis eyes of the Taurus Age cried as it was put to sleep.This Age of Pisces soon will join in the slumber.

You have a Yod planetary aspect pattern in your chart, also known as the 'finger of God'. “This is the Power of El Rey y La Reina de Espadas. The King and Queen of Spades.

The King and Queen represent the bringing forth of Manifestations into Reality. Self -Mastery.”

(Fabutron pg. 126).

This pattern consists of two different planets forming Inconjunct aspects of 150` to a third, or focal, point. Usually there will be a marked emphasis on the area of life represented by this focal point, which may be one planet, or two or more in conjunction. You may have physical or psychological problems associated with the expression of the energies of the focal planet or planets, creating a subtle form of tension in your life. Your lesson is to transform the expression of these energies along more positive lines.

The Moon in Aries gives an ardent nature with inclinations to impatience, independence and impulsiveness. With this placement, you have a high energy level. You also have a strong competitive streak, which, together with your attack first attitude, may conceal subtle feelings of insecurity. Your emotions are keenly felt, direct and spontaneous. You may have to guard against a quick temper. You should also guard against a tendency toward a too hasty reaction to situations, rather than a more carefully reasoned approach. You are most comfortable thinking of yourself as strongly independent with great physical daring and courage.

The Moon in the Second House represents being emotionally connected with one's values, with one's possessions, or the material things in this world. You may feel that your self-worth is connected with the physical manifestation of material wealth or material comfort. Your values are very important to you. You may feel compelled toward gaining material wealth or possessions when your emotional life is unfulfilling. You can also be quite generous. Your finances may fluctuate throughout your lifetime as you move through various emotional growth phases.

When you follow your gut feelings you are likely to be successful financially. You excel in occupations which deal with meeting the wants and needs of other people. You feel most comfortable and secure when your values and emotions are clearly defined and you can act upon them.

All bringing forth the Ascending Glory of the Piscean Age of Christ manifesting as my Pisces Rising (Skin), The Glory of a Divine Age soon past. Generation X.

The Rising Sign is the mask shown to others, also the physical appearance.People with Pisces rising are idealistic and sensitive. Your ruling planet is Neptune, also Jupiter. With this ascendant you are friendly and likable, yet also can be very moody and introspective, and not entirely at home in the world. Your appearance is delicate, with an ethereal quality suggesting contact with other dimensions of reality.

Pisces is a watery sign, concerned with subtle emotions and secret mystical depths. You are dreamy and full of imagination, and are easily influenced by everything around you. You also have an artistic temperament with which to express these feelings. You can be strong when necessary, but you may have a hard time making a decision. At your best you are truly compassionate, and operate at the level of service, love and understanding of mankind.

Mercury in strong square (within 0.1 degrees) with Ascendant

The planetary energies conflict; internal and creative tensions bring rich rewards through effort over time. This conjunction gives a personality who values mental pursuits and communication highly.

You have a need to connect with other people. Your attention is so much on communicating with others you may constantly worry about how you are coming across, and this may interfere with good communication with other people.

You are quick-witted and glib, and may also be nervous and high-strung. You should beware of a tendency to dominate any conversation you enter into.

Your pride in your mental abilities and education may overshadow your ability to hear other people. You may turn to writing or public speaking as a way to share your enthusiasm for your own ideas. You are in essence an independent thinker with your own way of looking at things, and you may be inspired and even visionary in your outlook.

Mars in square (within 3.6 degrees) with Ascendant

The planetary energies conflict; internal and creative tensions bring rich rewards through effort over time. This aspect gives a rash personality with a quick temper. You lack patience and tend to be argumentative. You are restless and have a forceful drive, which can lead you to accomplish great things, if properly harnessed. You are likely to possess a wiry and spare physique. You are also excitable, tend to run risks, and can be opinionated.

You are daring and have great physical vitality and stamina. You can definitely "hold your own" in a dispute. You are sometimes hard to talk with, seeming to take your own position at the expense of others, and you should beware of abrasive behavior towards them, such as bragging or pushing yourself too much. You usually mean well, and need to temper your physical drive with calmness and judgment.

Mars in Sagittarius (14° Sag 59'R) Mars in the Ninth House

Sagittarius the sign of the Playboy or the House Boy. The following paragraph emphasized: Mars in Sagittarius (or the ninth house) gives a friendly and optimistic nature. You are likely to lead a physically active life, and are fond of sports and gambling. You are idealistic, outspoken and honest with your opinions. You are also likely to be spontaneous and even a bit impulsive. You can be scattered in the application of your energies, and it will perhaps benefit you to work at becoming more reliable.

You have a great propensity for learning. Your energy is most naturally invested in adventures of the higher mind: travel, education, perhaps publishing. You like many different pursuits, and have a kind of haphazard way of going about things that can get you into trouble.

You may tend to miss the details, by fixing your gaze on "the big picture." You also can be dogmatic at times, when you get too carried away with your own point of view. You profit by learning to slow down your enthusiasm and focus your concentration on reachable goals.

So Long story short, Mars is now trasversing thru Libra with all of this Scorpian influence. Bringing great sexual energy into the individual, but Virgo harnasses that energy purifies it and transmutes it ot mental energy allowing me to Write.

That’s the beauty of the influence of Saturn on Taurus.Saturn is now resting in Libra (10/16/2010). This Libra represents the Balance of forces within my Soul. The Ying and the Yang. The Introvert and the Extravert. The male and the Female.

The Jihad of the Dignified Soul vs.The Free Spirit was settled within the Heart of The Golden Apis Bull. Feroz was bridled by the knowledge of the power of Envy upon one’s soul and the things that it along with Greed can accomplish despite itself. Reflecting and understanding that though Envy wasn’t common to his nature. He marveled at it’s creation and was Thankful.

The Apis Bull rested upon a bed of Lillys and Potporri. Straw and Roses petals dispersed. Closing it’s Emerald Eyes. Comforted now by the fact that he could now see thru the Darkness.

The Moon and Neptune are currently flowing thru Aquarius on this day, of more Lunar light than darkness.

Flowing Upstream of the Aquarian flow, an Angel saw a Pheonix and a Manta , disappear into folds of the Vase and disappeared in the mind of the Bull. As ,Then, he once again rose and became part of the Tapestry of Universal Consciousness.

Where my Jupiter was once in Virgo on my b-birth, today it is in Pisces. Uranus once in Libra, today in Pisces as well. Earth and Air Both transmuting into Water.

Where my Neptune in Scorpio transmutes into a Aquarian persona, the Moon in Aries soon gives chase changing its flame for flow. Water and Fire envy’s the Air.

My Taurus Sun acclimates itself to the Rays of Libra. So my Venus in Aries and Mars in Sagittarius are matched under this Libra sky under Scorpio.

Mercury stays balanced in it’s element both as Sole dispositor of my chart and on this day in the Air sign of Libra.

Pluto which was in my Virgo is today in Capricorn. Pluto was last in capricorn from 1762-1778. this was the time of the American declaration of Indepedence, the Boston tea party, watt’s invention of the steam engine and the riegn of lousiXVI and mary Antoinette. The industrial reveloution was in full swing. The rigidity of many governments of the time led to rebellions and uprisings in later years.

On a personal level , this position gives perseverence, ambition, efficiency in organizing and managerial ability. Those who have Pluto in Capricorn are conservative , materialistic, and spiritually strong. So the Bull (pluto in virgo) goes from technical development to Evolution within Gemini (pluto in Capricorn).

[ March & McEvers ]

I have taken on an Aquarius Spirit., part of the Aquarian flow that is Universal Consciousness. I was Further blessed today with two new members of my Family. Isabel coaxed me into becoming the adoptive father of two kittens. The Duel spirits of the Moon. For one is All Black (The New Moon) , the Other is a Grayish Tabby (The Moons transitions to full).

I Fell in Love with them. I think Isabel knew that would happen. Libra has brought life into the home of a Taurus. Now the Bull doen’t feel so lonely, a slight of being Misunderstood.

Traveling the Void- God is with Us

Ode to "God is with Us" ( Emanuel ) 

I'm sitting in the hospital bed at 2:02 in the am and I have You on the Brain. It's feb 25 a little more than twenty years since we first met. It may have been the first time that I told you that I loved you. Curse the words.

I have the abitily of keen insight into an indiviual. It's not up for debate, it exists. Finally though that insight has come home to roost and home has never felt so warm.

There were alot of things about you Emanuel that attracted me to you. You were my First. They say you Never forget your first. Oh boy, truer words have never been spoken.

You were the first man that I loved.
The first man that I Trusted. 
The first man that I felt I could speak my Heart to.
The first person that I could admire from close. 
You had a disiplined mind... I wonder how he does that? 
Anywho.. were's the ice cream
The most endearing part was that you were into Me. I had never had someone so interested in me before. Never had someone think that " wanting to become an an astronaut was cool, not nerdy" 
Never had someone that believed in me with encouragement.
Someone that understood the man that I wanted to become. Not someone great, just someone that I could be Proud of.  (crying a bit) 
All this I saw in your heart, all this I felt in your love and unsolicited help. All this made me breathe easier.

Then life got in the way. The cotton candy clouds that made up our world, gave way to the cumulus clouds of the everyday. Setting us into the storm patterns that would test that love.

It all began with your responsiblites and your inability to allow Love to temper your tongue.
Your tongue which first began to hurt, then sting, then whip, then lash. Until I was able to lash myself more effectively than the master, for I knew where all the demons lied.

Where sitting in a jail cell was a scene of my life that I would have never pictured. A hell , an Angels wings had been clipped. Fear caused me to graciously recount my steps until I could feel the warmth of the sun on my back again and know that God is with me.
 
That journey lasted from '90-'03, when I remembered that we are judged by the company that we keep. I was lacking in company of my suiting. It was time to molt let the pestilence fall away like the leaves awaiting a renewed spring day.

In '04 I was hatched again and the life that emerged wasn't as majestic as the eagle before. It was unsightly, awkward, frail and didn't look like it could survive a summers day let alone a winters nap.
I had lost my work the source of my independence. My health insurance, my source of  the ability to heal. Friends to call near for a source of support. I
called upon that cloud, he offered a last vestige of support under that wing.
 Sympatheic as that cloud was. The bird was no longer the same, niether was the interest. It (the cloud) , You were a tail feather left over from the molting, curious that it should stay, being reborn and all.
 
The tailfeather, you, were wilting and I couldn't quite get it out,so unmindfully I stuck another one (guy) in it's place. One though beautiful and comely, one ultimately more virulent in nature.

Remembering the spirit that is me. I bought an object more expressive of my nature, 1200cc's worth.  Then I powered down to Florida to just be able to breathe again.

I was able to take stock in that which was me. But my original nest kept calling me back home. Home where the air is toxic to the spirit, harmful to the soul. Home that will turn a young man to dust before his story could be told.

When my puppy died under that Florida sky, Elmocito. The last gift that the cloud, You could bestow. I knew it was time to test my renewed lungs under those toxic clouds. "Why complain about the air when there's nothing else to breathe".
A bird must complain for the sky is where we live. " Birds must fly, fish must swim, man must..." **

My plummage was coming in beautifully, my frame constantly tested under it's weight, something to work on. 
By the time I returned that new tail feather (guy) released it's poison into my artieral flow and said " now bitch, Grow". 
The city stole my ride and that tail feather never stopped feeding poison. I was under the influence of dark spirits. In a realm unfamiliar to those that live with the dawn. Subjected to severe recriminations - sacrificed willingly. For sometimes even the light of ones own spirit must be eclipsed, in order to divine the realm of the shadow. I had to fully understand, the ashes from which a Pheonix must be reborn. 
 
I survived. I had a project something greater than myself and nothing was going to get between it and me. 
My eyes became more Feral, my will became more impervious. My heart galvinized itself to the barbs, the needles, the hooks, the stabs, those things that could harm both seen and unseen.

It's 4:19 am I just got another transfusion, thank god for Dr. Drew may he rest in peace.

I've tried to reach out to the cloud,you, but besides it's form, nothing much was recognizable. I'd rather remember what was.
Since being in the hospital I've plucked out both tail feathers, they've withered againgst the outslaught of the souls inferno that lays beneath the skin. 
The plummage is growing in unhampered now and that awkward bird that once resembled a chicken is now taking on a Pheonix's gait. 

I can't spit fire yet or sing the pheonix's song, nor can I fly though I test my wings daily. But I know that I am content with my being. I am a creature of myth, a part of the stars. I am here to join the fight I am here to clear the Fuckin Air , because it is offensive to my sight. That's what complaining will get you.

As for those two tail feathers, well the new one I buried deep within the Earth, it has a few half lives to go through before it can return.

Interestingly Enuff my nurse Irina O., Russian immigrant is a Cancer, a nuturer. God is with us. I told her under tears that writing this has made me happy, she almost came to tears herself. It's 4:47am she's a cancer born 6/28/1985.

It's interesting because the new tail feather was a Cancer, the old one a Virgo. Both on either cusp of Leo. I was inhaling sulfur at the beginning and the end of the burn.

As for that old tail feather, You, Emanuel. I've released it to the atmosphere below and hope that it finds that cloud that I left behind not so long ago. Maybe that cloud will find some restorive change. Maybe it will understand, why it was my first love. 
It was a cosmic thing. Don't look down, look up.The Universe is within your sights.

"Love hath reason, that reason doth not know".

I found my gift in the void. The gift that would provide me the Peace that I would find in the work that I do. The peace matched the happiness (gaiety) that was naturally mine.  
 
I am contented. I am satisfied and fulfilled. This is the Peace and Happiness one finds, "when you walk through the storm". 

Remember keep your head up high, for "God is with Us". 

Vaya Con Dios.
                      Feroz

**The Secret Language of Birthdays 

Pisces please navigate the Void, the Abyss

There's a Void within Us.
Inexplicable though it maybe, it exists. 
Nature abhors a void.

The void is pervasive to the nature of man. It strikes like an ache that's felt but unlocated. Causing children distress, tantrums unchecked. Causing our youth to rebel, putting them into a frenzy of action that tests the discipline ingrained. 

It acts like a spatial anomoly, felt yet unseen. When you reach its event horizon you feel its pull. Clear and present danger. Careful the undertow might pull you in. Be afraid my children, "for God has troubled the Water".

A disciplined mind senses it's presence and begins to find a way to map the void. An irresponsible mind tries to ignore it.

An irresponsible mind runs from it thinking they'll find happiness and freedom the further they run. A disciplined mind knows that it follows you because it's tethered. 

Not without the pain of experimentation both the disciplined mind and the irresponsible begin to actively engage the void. Remember it's pervasive. It's also cunning. The predator has teeth and it pangs, it pangs for the attention that it seeks from it's host. "I am here, I am with you, I will not be ignored" 

The predator knows what it "wants". I want to have fun. I want to play. I want drink, drugs, sex, money, a nigger, a bitch. I want to be alone. Etc.

The trap is set for both the disciplined mind and the irresponsible. Success is measured by the navigation. Sometimes it's measured by shear luck. Such is the nature of the beast.

The void grows with you as you grow. It can guide your dreams and influence your passions. It has power over - it adds power, to your life. The void can make you weep. It can make you sing. It can make you invincible, it can make you weak. Yet when completely sensed by your spirit, the unseen reveals itself to your sight. It is dangerous and benign. You understand it's magnitude.
 
To be absolutely truthful it's meant as a gift. The gift is different for everyone. Means something different to everyone.

It's hope lies within you. Only you have the key. Only you can answer the call of the wild. Only you can tame the beast or be devoured by it.

Are you disciplined or are you irresponsible?

To the Neophytes of Terra I say this: your best defense against the beast lies in the words of your elders. Which elders? Anyone that seems to have the riens on thier life. 

As a youth, a boy. I was fortunate enuff to be raised in the company of my Great Grand mother. Not many have that privelege. When I took my first breath my Grandma Elsie already was working on her 55th rotation. Her friends equally so.

There was ages old wisdom amoungst these carribean women. Secrets seemingly as old as time to the ears of a seven year old watching them covort over a hot summers grill, a boatride, a picnic, a birthday party, a stint at the salon. 

Words of wisdom that rang true from thier mouths because the stories they told were lifes stories. The jokes they told, yes were meant to make them laugh but they laughed all the harded because the things they joked about were true. That's when a saavy seven year old started to understand the concept of irony. That things aren't always as they appear. Wisdom imparted, discplined instilled.

"A childs place is to be seen, not heard", many times that was told to me. I never resented it, I obeyed. A discplined child learns that, it doesn't mean you can't ask a question from time to time. Because from time to time the elders would gage if the answer was appropriate enuff for your ears. They didn't forget that you were there. Remember: "sit up, stop biting your nails". 

When they had to get rid of you because the conversation would get to deep all of a sudden, " go fetch grandma a Guiness stout" would be asked and I'd go skipping away because I wanted to be useful. They spoke thier secrets in peace. Innocense protected.

By the time I was fourteen, I was thirty because of thier exposure. That's the gift of the elders.

A closed mouth and an open ear can reveal many treasures that money can't provide. Jewels of wisdom. 

Secrets to the Void within our soul.
 
The trap is set. A new generation arrives. A predator awaiting each one lurking in the tall Serengetti grasses. The feast is about to begin. It is Darwinism at it's best. 

Who survives? It's simple, those that know not to provide the petulant beast what it wants, but to nuture it with what it "needs". What you need. Discipline.

When God in you feels that your listening, he whispers. When ignored he screams, growls, he bites. Such is the void. You hurt. 

The pain comes in many forms. Worry, anger, hatred, addiction of all forms, antisocialism, envy. Let's just say people that turn the party ugly.

When you learn to listen to the universe when it whispers to your soul. You may not get the order right at first but atleast you nuture the pang. 

From time to time even the discplined mind gets frustrated. For the Void is fastidious and it wants what it wants. But as you mature you understand that all wants can not be fulfilled or met and you must be content with what you need. 

When you find that contentment, whether it be through creating a family, finding work that fulfills you, simply getting inline with the rhythm of the universe, you are cleansed with satisfaction everyday. Peace and happiness await you like a shield against the trials of life. You smile easier, laugh harder, health is restored. Even your occassional bad habits aren't so much a malady. 

You step into the fresh spring air and look back at the winters blizzard and say, " Good God, what the Hell was that, that I went through". Smiling, knowing that though not unscathed, you survived. The Void has been crossed. The Perfect Storm has been weathered. 

You stop, gather yourself. Weep not for what has been lost. Be it friends, money, time or health. For you are at Peace, you are content. Satisfaction fills you and Paradise lies within.

Some survive the onslaught of the void with a few licks. Some are forever paralyzed by it and perish. Some get through it without ever quite understanding it's nature. Few look back at it and smile because they know they are forever changed for the better by it.

My journey through life was arduous not because of my fear of the Void, I hate fear. But because I saw the power of the void, it's strength. I mapped it time and again. Ever fickle was it's design. 

When I approached the event horizon it seemed like the best rollercoaster ride that I'd ever have. It scared me to death, my heart beat harder. It may have even skipped a beat. I aimed for the center and held on tight to the controls of my Space shuttle. Maximum shields Mr. Zulu, Spock I want a play by play. O'Hura release the communications bouy and alert Starfleet. Mr. Chekov prepare for the wakes. And Bones get prepared for casualties.
Jim I'm just an ole country doctor. 
Well then replicate a reserve batch of courage with a dose of faith and may God protect our souls. We're going in.

When I emerged, I had Astrology as my map and writing as my work. Fabutron was my purpose and I was set on my course. The child in me hasn't died, he steering my ship at fourteen. 

I am content, happy. It's 4:16 am Feb 28,2010. I'm lying in Lenox Hill hospital on my iPhone typing. Aren't these amazing times in which we live.

We are on the cusp of the Age of Aquarius open the window let the sun shine in.  

A New Year, A New Me, So Tense, At Ease. Breath.

I'm entering a contest that would award me 10k, for my reason why the money would change my life. WPIX is hosting it. Here's my entry:

$10k would change my status from employee to C.E.O. 10k will give my business startup some life after it's birth last year, Fabutron 4/13/2009.
I would file the winnings under " Stimulus Package ". I'd get a CPA to crunch the numbers to my buiness plan. Which I have to present to the "Shark tank". Get a Publisist to put me in touch with those that can get this engine some gas. A business needs many minds. Oh, I'd get a new Apple, yes, I'm a cultist. As an Astrologer, a writer and a new Entreprenuer winning would be my cherry on top for thinking out of the box.
The best thing that this recession has taught me. Learn to put yourself to work and you'll be happy. Interestingly enuff at Forty, I'm retired, "me no job", but I love to create. I would please me to employ people to give face to my creation. Fabutron a social networking gaming site based on the medium of Astrology.
Hiring, gal "Wendesday" and guy "Friday".

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Well missed the deadline for that particular 10k contest. Why I'm sitting in the hospital, recovering from a health setback. Oh well there are many setbacks in the fulfillment of a goal. Pick your self up, dust yourself off and get back in step. I'm learning the strength of a dream is 90% will power which includes planning, research, dreaming, implementing, evaluation, studying and faith. The other ten percent is the gamble.

We all get dealt a hand to play in life. Not even a hand of Aces, means that you'll win. The writting is in the stars.

Once in a Blue Moon you are granted a Wish and a Prayer

What do you believe in? What do you wish for, pray for? Waiting for a miracle? Can you even spot one when one occurs? Miracles can occur even in the most mundane of things. A miracle is occuring tonight this New Years of 2010 with the dawning of a Blue Moon. It's not just a saying, it's reality. "Once in a Blue Moon...", God is in all things. I find it to be a cosmic irony that 2009 should end with a Blue Moon in a year that has been so blue.

This year began with two small miracles. The installation of a Black man in the office of the President of the United States and the miraculous landing of a Jet in the river of the Empire State. We as a nation suffered thru the brunt of a recession. The death of both musical and political icons. A few days ago there was a small miracle of a thwarted terrorist attempt and this morning it snowed. Miracles happen everyday.

A Blue Moon is magikal, for those that believe in such things. It's magikal because of the timing that has to take place for one to occur. It's magikal to me because it marks the culmination of 40 years upon the face of Gaea for me. They say forty is the new twenty and I feel that time has actually been turned back. If not for everyone, then just for me.

I have discovered things about myself and about my place to society at large. I feel a sense of connection that I have never felt before. In a time when we as a people are so distant from one another. Today's meditation, "To see the world more clearly we may need to take off our glasses". Our Rose colored glasses, our glasses of rage, contempt, bitterness, selfishness, jealousy and all of those other traits that blind us to that which connect us. Start looking at the world through the eyes of God. Perhaps that's too much of a tall order. So just start with the notion that " it's not always about You".

It rare that one is granted both a wish and a prayer but that is just what this Blue Moon is offering. What is my Wish and Prayer, well that's between me and God. I can tell you what it's not. It's not for more money or a new car. It's not for world peace, it for ... Something a bit more familial.

Happy New Year of 2010 , remember that peace and happiness doesn't have to wait for a Blue Moon.

Why Astrology?

It is with the most profound serendipity that I answer this question on this day @ 6:28 am, Taurus rising. Today December 8th, 2009 is the day of Abandon. Which is the basis for an even greater theme. However in answering the question, Why Astrology? It is the days meditation that focuses my thoughts.
“ The soul must be freed, whatever the cost”. this meditation exemplifies why I became an Astrologist. When I was younger, I toyed with the idea of becoming a psychologist. I wanted to know why people did what they did. What phobias or schisms they suffered from and the like.

After a while it occurred to me, that by the time a client got to me, the damage was already done. To “fix” them would require great effort on my part and on the part of the patient who is hard pressed to self-diagnoses and treat. In fact the term patient already seemed distasteful to me. Subsequently I knew drugs would have to control a damaged spirit, where meditation should suffice. I however grew up in the bush (Panama) and was more holistic (shamanistic) than modern practices. I fully subscribe to the notion, “ an ounce of prevention, is better than a pound of cure”.

So instead of psychology , I picked engineering as a career path. Believing that the invention of things would bring me greater satisfaction. Beside people were too duplicitous, saying one thing and doing another. No value in the stock, bad investment (of time).

After reaching the age of Independence with my studies on track. I had yet other obstacles, a social life. I needed help. To the rescue I discovered in B&N, “ The secret Language, of Birthdays” in the Astrology section. I slowly became a student of Astrology.

At first like any real science I approached it with a sense of skepticism, looking for flaws in the logic. I used myself as a barometer, knowing that I always knew my own truth. Well it passed. I used it as a measurement against those that I knew and dated. It passed as well. It was fun and helped when I needed to “break the Ice” with a new date.

Later I put astrology to a more practical use, to what amounts to the practice of Soul Mapping, the art of mindfulness, At first I didn’t know that was what I was doing. It just started with a question. Why did I fail at..? What, I failed at wasn’t really the point, the objective was, what within my personality caused me to fail at that particular thing. For if I didn’t get to the root of the problem, then weed it out, surely it would cause me to fail at any other endeavor that I encountered. I’m tired of failing. Astrology was invaluable help in that recognition process.

To map one’s soul, to be mindful. Takes ardent vigilance, brutal honesty, plodding will power and the most extreme patience. with one’s self.

When all these components are up and running then thoughts begin to crystalize within your mind and a light is turned on, leading down a path. I will take courage and faith to walk the path, for the path is yours and yours alone. Frightening..not so much. But it does require one to constantly look at the “Man in the mirror”. Sadly many are afraid to look at their own flaws, they are rife you know.

“A man has many skins in himself, covering the depths of his heart. Man knows so many things; he does not know himself. Why, thirty or forty skins or hides (years), just like an ox’s or a bear’s, so thick and hard, cover the soul. Go into your own ground and learn to know yourself there”. (Eckhart)

It took me twenty years to know myself. It took another twenty years to know how to apply myself to the collective consciousness. I credit astrology, the psychology of the Universe, for setting my Sol free. Allowing me to see the face of God.

Astrology has allowed me the tools that I need to start a business without being stressed. Knowing that “strength of vision is important, but so is the ability to see things as they really are”. The Day of Confidence.

Astrology has taught me to embrace all of me, especially the flaws for they help define us (Divine US). Our flaws keep us in touch with our humanity and teaches compassion for one another. Altruism, Love.

For Love hath reason, that Reason doth not know.
God rests in Reason.
God moves in Passion.

All Saints - Enjoy the Go!

Today is All Saint's Day it is the root of the trinity of honored days. The most famous being "All Hollows Eve" , the least of which being "All Soul's Day. It always happen in threes. All Saint's Day is meant to honor saints both known and unknown.Saints are to be venerated worthy of imitation to help one succeed in becoming a better person.

I have a saint as my middle name, Saint Christopher , his spirit runs true in my soul, the Traveler. Saint Christopher was true to himself. As a result he was a happy man. Saint Christopher truly "Enjoyed the Go", he was free.

It has been eight years to the day when I, Feroz cut my crown of locks off after eight years of growth. I was working down as a relief worker at the World Trade Center site. I had been working there four days after the destruction of the Towers. My normally gay demeanor was being usurped by the prevailing grief of the times. So on November 1,2001 I cut my locks and submerged myself into the national grief. I felt like a lamb to slaughter.

November 1st is The Day of Onslaught and true to it's title I was besieged with the grief of those that were lost. Besieged with the grief of the loved ones left behind. Besieged with the pain that was inflicted upon the Heart of this nation. A stab at our national freedom. I was not Enjoying the go. I was in the midst of the Hurricane a category 5, my very existence was in jeopardy. Our national spirit was in jeopardy.

So I called upon my training that I received in the Marine Corps. Breathe, don't panic. When all around you is falling apart. When an ocean of turbulent emotional events are approaching the precipice, leading to Hell's chasm. Keep the days meditation in mind,"The stillest part of the Hurricane is it's Center". Keep that in mind as you plummet over the falls, so that Peace is at home within your heart.

After the wake of 9/11, after picking up the many broken pieces and soothing the many stricken hearts. Despair has settled into the heart of this nation again, as we face the worst recession since Roosevelt. Once again the nations people are stricken with grief. Once again darkness is the prevailing pall seeding the atmosphere. What now?

Well, it takes a brave soul to volunteer and become the light. Am I distressed? No. Am I somber? No. Am I frightened about the future? No, I am Enjoying the Go. I am sitting above the dark clouds beneath, on the Rainbow of Faith. Enjoying the grace, "In God We Trust". It's on every piece of currency that is in every pocket of every citizen across this great nation. In God we trust, aren't just words it's the ethos of this nation. It is the manifesto that is embedded into the spirit of my generation.

Generation X , we the born Flower children embracing the spirit of '69. The spirit of freedom. That freedom from the paralysis of worry and fear. Why, because we hold the Key to Peace and Happiness. No need to worry. In God We Trust.

So on November 5th, Fabutron in concert with Charmin will be "Enjoying the Go". Embracing the spirit of America, freedom.
What recession?
To a Taurus, it's always a Bull Market.
So embrace the Saints, and like Saint Christopher, you too can Enjoy the Go.
Vaya con Dios.

Fabutron in Action, reason with passion

God Rests in Reason, God Moves in Passion. It is with this passion that I go forward making plans towards the success of Fabutron.

At this stage in the game, I have started to market my product amid a quivering Heart. I have met failure and I'm found undaunted and emboldened. I think three times before making a move. In a recession resources must be used prudently. Prudent Economy. The wills sense of purpose galvinizes itself to the heart of the heart. Keeping the path steady although the footing is unsure. Never loosing ground. Like a trail smart Boyscout I refer to my compass many times along the journey to keep true North. This is one of those times.

I pull out my compass enscribed with the word Fabutron on the front. In back it says Fabulous Future. It reminds me of what Fabutron is.

Fabutron is an online financial social networking gaming site based on the medium of Astrology. I look at the face of the compass and the arrow is pointing true north with Scorpio overhead. Todays meditation reads," Life itself may be only a series of illusions - why not pick those which brings us the most enjoyment? "

Funny how that ties in with the Fabutron game. I'll be turning 40 and 1/2 on the Fourteenth of November. My second birthday wish is to squeeze the Charmin, for a mere 10k. Fourth is the new Twenty, so you get twice as many birthday wishes. So squeezing Charmin will be a blessing for Fabutron. Can't give into recession woes.

So in short astrology says that I should pick the reality that I find to my enjoyment. Computers offers a gateway to that reality, thus being online. Financial, is another aspect of reality. While money won't make you happy, not having it certainly isn't a rose garden. So Fabutron provides an alternate stream of income.

Not wanting to put the cart before the horse. The financial aspect is always something I am mindful of in my day to day development of this service. For if Fabutron can not generate revenue for it's clients it fails it's mission statement.

Social Networking. In the late eighties, early ninties we Urban youth were encouraged to network. Networking at the time was usually focused or done for the reason of furthering education or occupation. At the time, to this twenty-something eyes it seemed all too clickish. Alot of peacocking very few producing anything notable. No real merging of the spirits towards enlightenment financial or otherwise.

These days sites like Facebook, MySpace, eHarmony offer the websurfer a way to socialize, usually with family and friends. If you get a chance you might get lucky finding a date, hopefully the rgigt one. Or have a bit of entertainment playing Mafia wars or Worlds of Warcraft. But what is an adult doing if not simply wasting valuable time. Playing idol games.

Fabutron isn't idol time wasted. By utilizing the medium of astrology we are merging the " paranormal " with the mundane. I say paranormal because to many astrology seems very occult, mysterious, incomprehensible. In my study of astrology I can understand why some would liken it to magik.

Astrology does live on another plane of existance. That existance is the "awareness" of the energies, forces, the waves of the universe. Those things that affect you simply because you are not aware of thier existance. Like the pull of the Full Moon on the tide or the shadows of the New Moon in the mind. I call these energies the Emotions of God.

These emotions are represented in the elements of Earth, Air, Water & Fire. These vibes are both given off by ourselves and by others. Thru astrology we will learn how to become more aware of them in a format that is both entertaining and beneficial to your bottomline.

I'm a Taurus, I understand that people always want to know "what's in it for me". At Radio station Wii-FM, we will unravel the mystery of you and this thing called astrology. You won't have to become an astrologist to know how to use astrology for your benefit. You won't have to become the Weatherman to know the weather, rain or shine.

At Fabutron you can find love, friends, opportunities, entertainment. Hopefully in these time of woe perhaps you'll even find God, whatever you imagine S/Him to be. If not perhaps just Peace and Happiness, for God lives there too. As well as inside each and every Divine one of US.

" Where there's a Will, there's a Wayne"

Clash Of The Titans , Over The Aquarian Falls

Hola America, It’s Feroz.

It is now 2:46 a.m. since I made the video , Fabutron’s Hail to the Chief. That Aquarian flow was like Niagara falls strength at Angel’s falls heights. Magnifico, Si.

I’m writing this now, so I can take my time ( I wrote this first long hand before typing) to write and not feel rushed . Today feels like liberation. It feels like I’m living my chart. A Taurus to a Libran balance. My chart is designed like the seesaw. A toy for kids and although I’m 40 in age, I’m 14 at Heart! In spirit eternally Young. The Divine Us.

The meditation for Oct. 9th, 2009 was “ I saw a boat slowly cutting it’s way through a frozen river and at the same moment a friend said,’Love breaks the Ice’”. It is the Day of The Penetrating Gaze.

I have a particular love for Barack. Barack my Brother, I Greet you with a Kiss:

We are intimate , you and I.

I greet you with a kiss.

We, like Reflections with Six degrees of Separation.

Ever closer do we come to merging.

I greet you with a kiss.

My brother of mother Earth’s birthing.

I greet you with a kiss.

A brother of Peace , a brother of love.

I greet you...

Speaking with omniloquence. Flowing with Peace’s eloquence.

Surging, gaining force and Speed.

Warp Speed against Wars antiquated steed.

For War will be obsolete, when he becomes socially unacceptable.

...with a kiss.

A brother Titan with a lightning fist.

I greet you with a kiss.

Who sees thru the heart of War, as though in a mist.

I greet you with a kiss.

In defiance to Wars restless state.

You thru acceptance do abate.

When bravely focused putting forth your heartfelt determined devotion;

are scorned against by that green eyed sloth's emotion.

I could kiss you for the recognition,

for my plight, for my jihad of respect vs. derision.

I greet you with a Kiss

So, I just want you to know,

Fabutron greets you with an Aquarian Flow.

I greet you with a kiss.

Amen.

Of course taking into account swine flu being what it is. That’s what happens when love breaks the Ice. Please sir not closer than 3 ft. Mind if I smoke? The nerves , you know.

I keep thinking what I’d like Fabutron to become, but the Now, is the part that really tickles me. I guess every 14 year old still wants to be tickled. Like every woman.

It’s Sabbath Morn and I’m playing “I’m Every Woman”, catch it Michelle. You too Michelle. Again the Hermit enters the scene as the forgotten one. I speak the words of Michael. Where in the world are you going without the village shaman. Not too far. As he sits.

The Bull (May 14th) is stubborn, so the Lion (Aug. 4th) speaks softly to appease the peace. The Bull rises and trots to the point, Semper Fi. Like a lamb to slaughter. The Apis Moon. The love of the Heart , Faith.

That’s what the Nobel committee bestowed you with, my revered brother Barack, the faith of the free world. As a reverent Boy scout should both have and be worthy of the honor of receiving. As if by second nature. Brother you should be “Looking good and feeling Gorgeous:. That’s what Wonder Woman would say. I can’t help it I’m Gay.

Today Now @ 4:07 a.m. is the Day of Prudent Economy. Prudence is wise/careful conduct. Thrifty, even shrewd in planning ahead. For the sake of Radiance and Rosebud, Ambria, Rashawn, Rey’s two Disney’s Princess’s and Terra’s next generation, I join your vigilance. I am married to your hopes, Mr. Obama.

Life is a series of Serendipitous Transformations. I suppose ultimately ‘til death.The only constant in life is change. It is advised to stay midstream whilst within the stream of Universal change. To know the oscillations of Universal Consciousness.

I skipped a few days ahead up ‘til Kevin’s Birthday. This is a homage to our Silver anniversary of friendship. The Day of Gracious Ease, Oct. 11th speaks,” T.V. is an electronic attempt at telepathy”. Live long and Prosper indeed.

Indeed we are all tied to the Wheel ( Oct. 10th card). It is the Justice, (Oct. 11th card) of the Hanged Man (Oct. 12th). Happy 39th Birthday Kevin, Gen-Xer. Whose chant on the Mali beads is “Inspiration”. As for meditating on the days thought,” What would be the most difficult single thing for YOU to live without?

For God is inspiration to my Jihad of the Soul.

Amen

Feroz

10/10/09

@ 4:50 A.M.

The House of Faberge

A Royal Passing into thier House Faberge. The King and the Queen of Spades taking thier assigned thrones. The Queen says," Please take time for prayer, with bowed heads". The crowd all lowers thier head in reverence. The Queen prays," We work for God, She's a tough boss, and the pay isn't always good..." there's grumbling to be heard amoungst the crowd "... But the Rewards are there...welcome all under God to the Day of the Just Cause, October 5th, 2009 in the year of the Earth Ox. The moon is beginning to wane, so now is the time to act towards bringing forth the future. Amen"

In this case the Queen is also the Hierophant, the 5th card in the Major Arcana. The knowledge of the queen is esoteric, and reigns over the unseen. She is a symbol of understanding and faith. She will lead you into dark spaces with grace. So never fear. You will understand Universal Conscienceness/Consciousness, you will be aware.

I believe that we as the species of Human (69) all have the dominate ethos of striving to be virtuous. Yet it is in that striving that we meet our demise for the hardest virtue to hurdle is Honesty. Point A to Point B. Some of us have exiled ourselves for so long from it, that we hate it when we hear it. Most of us are so apprehensive of the truth, that we have to hear it twice before we can believe it. Few of us find there's no simpler way to live, than by the truth. Someone once said, the truth will set you Free. I don't know who, I've heard so often.

I am the heirophant, the king and the queen, The Sage Feroz. I am the C.E.O. of Fabutron. The House above is the Jellyfish 45, by Italian designer GianCarlo Zema. It will be the gathering ace for those in "The House of Faberge". A meeting place for astrologers, children that have thier eyes focused on the future. It will be a place of like minds, and spirits.

Fabutron will be headquartered in Faberge House. Fabutron : is an online financial social networking gaming site based on the medium of Astrology. Think eHarmony meets Facebook meets Worlds of Warcraft meets Fabutron Fiancial. I grew up playing videogames, I like them. However at the age of 40, play and work must Be the same. So I have devised a way for my investors "Family" entering into the house to also earn a profit, perhaps even a salary.

Things however begin with small steps. Those entering into the House of Faberge, must enter with truth in thier eyes and hearts as light as a feather. Must be willing to sacrifice in these lean times, a fivepence, $5. Think of it as an initial investment of introduction. I am introducing Myself Feroz, C.E.O. of Fabutron to You. You represent those that muster together for the future using astrology and making a profit. How? Well that comes thru a series of introductions. The first being a copy of my book,"The Rooster Cries: Generation X".

I will email you a copy of the book, upon reciept. It will foster a forum, about the book, about astrology and about the business. Three topics of discussion that are paramount on a C.E.O.'s mind. We will be using skype so names can have faces. Everyone knows everyone else in the Village. I am the Village Astrologer. The Sage. It is my intention to bring all gifts to bear. Every soul has a gift.

We are the Children on the Cusp of the New Age of Aquarius. Aquarius the thinker, his thoughts flow like water. Let's be the generation to catch the wave thru cooperation.

The first rule of universal conscienceness is to recognize the truth. If you see truth in my words then go to step (5) in my blog "Start a business for a Penny" to enter into the house. The contact info is there. Any questions reach out Fabutron69@gmail.com.
See my Business Certificate - Fabutron on Facebook.

Remember Fabutron means Fabulous Future.