Once in a Blue Moon you are granted a Wish and a Prayer

What do you believe in? What do you wish for, pray for? Waiting for a miracle? Can you even spot one when one occurs? Miracles can occur even in the most mundane of things. A miracle is occuring tonight this New Years of 2010 with the dawning of a Blue Moon. It's not just a saying, it's reality. "Once in a Blue Moon...", God is in all things. I find it to be a cosmic irony that 2009 should end with a Blue Moon in a year that has been so blue.

This year began with two small miracles. The installation of a Black man in the office of the President of the United States and the miraculous landing of a Jet in the river of the Empire State. We as a nation suffered thru the brunt of a recession. The death of both musical and political icons. A few days ago there was a small miracle of a thwarted terrorist attempt and this morning it snowed. Miracles happen everyday.

A Blue Moon is magikal, for those that believe in such things. It's magikal because of the timing that has to take place for one to occur. It's magikal to me because it marks the culmination of 40 years upon the face of Gaea for me. They say forty is the new twenty and I feel that time has actually been turned back. If not for everyone, then just for me.

I have discovered things about myself and about my place to society at large. I feel a sense of connection that I have never felt before. In a time when we as a people are so distant from one another. Today's meditation, "To see the world more clearly we may need to take off our glasses". Our Rose colored glasses, our glasses of rage, contempt, bitterness, selfishness, jealousy and all of those other traits that blind us to that which connect us. Start looking at the world through the eyes of God. Perhaps that's too much of a tall order. So just start with the notion that " it's not always about You".

It rare that one is granted both a wish and a prayer but that is just what this Blue Moon is offering. What is my Wish and Prayer, well that's between me and God. I can tell you what it's not. It's not for more money or a new car. It's not for world peace, it for ... Something a bit more familial.

Happy New Year of 2010 , remember that peace and happiness doesn't have to wait for a Blue Moon.

Why Astrology?

It is with the most profound serendipity that I answer this question on this day @ 6:28 am, Taurus rising. Today December 8th, 2009 is the day of Abandon. Which is the basis for an even greater theme. However in answering the question, Why Astrology? It is the days meditation that focuses my thoughts.
“ The soul must be freed, whatever the cost”. this meditation exemplifies why I became an Astrologist. When I was younger, I toyed with the idea of becoming a psychologist. I wanted to know why people did what they did. What phobias or schisms they suffered from and the like.

After a while it occurred to me, that by the time a client got to me, the damage was already done. To “fix” them would require great effort on my part and on the part of the patient who is hard pressed to self-diagnoses and treat. In fact the term patient already seemed distasteful to me. Subsequently I knew drugs would have to control a damaged spirit, where meditation should suffice. I however grew up in the bush (Panama) and was more holistic (shamanistic) than modern practices. I fully subscribe to the notion, “ an ounce of prevention, is better than a pound of cure”.

So instead of psychology , I picked engineering as a career path. Believing that the invention of things would bring me greater satisfaction. Beside people were too duplicitous, saying one thing and doing another. No value in the stock, bad investment (of time).

After reaching the age of Independence with my studies on track. I had yet other obstacles, a social life. I needed help. To the rescue I discovered in B&N, “ The secret Language, of Birthdays” in the Astrology section. I slowly became a student of Astrology.

At first like any real science I approached it with a sense of skepticism, looking for flaws in the logic. I used myself as a barometer, knowing that I always knew my own truth. Well it passed. I used it as a measurement against those that I knew and dated. It passed as well. It was fun and helped when I needed to “break the Ice” with a new date.

Later I put astrology to a more practical use, to what amounts to the practice of Soul Mapping, the art of mindfulness, At first I didn’t know that was what I was doing. It just started with a question. Why did I fail at..? What, I failed at wasn’t really the point, the objective was, what within my personality caused me to fail at that particular thing. For if I didn’t get to the root of the problem, then weed it out, surely it would cause me to fail at any other endeavor that I encountered. I’m tired of failing. Astrology was invaluable help in that recognition process.

To map one’s soul, to be mindful. Takes ardent vigilance, brutal honesty, plodding will power and the most extreme patience. with one’s self.

When all these components are up and running then thoughts begin to crystalize within your mind and a light is turned on, leading down a path. I will take courage and faith to walk the path, for the path is yours and yours alone. Frightening..not so much. But it does require one to constantly look at the “Man in the mirror”. Sadly many are afraid to look at their own flaws, they are rife you know.

“A man has many skins in himself, covering the depths of his heart. Man knows so many things; he does not know himself. Why, thirty or forty skins or hides (years), just like an ox’s or a bear’s, so thick and hard, cover the soul. Go into your own ground and learn to know yourself there”. (Eckhart)

It took me twenty years to know myself. It took another twenty years to know how to apply myself to the collective consciousness. I credit astrology, the psychology of the Universe, for setting my Sol free. Allowing me to see the face of God.

Astrology has allowed me the tools that I need to start a business without being stressed. Knowing that “strength of vision is important, but so is the ability to see things as they really are”. The Day of Confidence.

Astrology has taught me to embrace all of me, especially the flaws for they help define us (Divine US). Our flaws keep us in touch with our humanity and teaches compassion for one another. Altruism, Love.

For Love hath reason, that Reason doth not know.
God rests in Reason.
God moves in Passion.

Fat,Dumb and Happy

Today in the wee hours God spoke to me. God said," Make me happy, and you shall not want for anything". I was tickled, still am. Today is Thanksgiving. I'm sitting in my aunts apartment waiting for the festivities to begin. Waiting to pray, get served and eat until I'm fat,dumb and happy. That's unbelievable comfort in this time of recession.

It is in times like this that the familys worth shines thru, more precious than gold. If the meaning of family wasn't so perennial, I'd be moved to tears out of appreciation. Yet family is the one thing we fallback on in trying times. When we forget that,"The rhythm of breathing is a constant accompaniment to life" ( meditation ).

This is a time when reflection is most appreciated. When we remember those that were in our lives , but no longer are. Micheal Jackson, Edward Kennedy, Bea Authur, Elsie Scott ( grandmother ), Roberto Gayle ( brother ), et.al. You can add to the list. Libations, libations, for those that have past, for one day we too will be added to that list. Family, family will be all that's left.

I guess I'm saying in these times be grateful, be thankful, for the little things. For it's not the times that we live in that we remember, it's the moments.

Eat and be fat,dumb and happy.
Happy Thanksgiving, Divine US.

All Saints - Enjoy the Go!

Today is All Saint's Day it is the root of the trinity of honored days. The most famous being "All Hollows Eve" , the least of which being "All Soul's Day. It always happen in threes. All Saint's Day is meant to honor saints both known and unknown.Saints are to be venerated worthy of imitation to help one succeed in becoming a better person.

I have a saint as my middle name, Saint Christopher , his spirit runs true in my soul, the Traveler. Saint Christopher was true to himself. As a result he was a happy man. Saint Christopher truly "Enjoyed the Go", he was free.

It has been eight years to the day when I, Feroz cut my crown of locks off after eight years of growth. I was working down as a relief worker at the World Trade Center site. I had been working there four days after the destruction of the Towers. My normally gay demeanor was being usurped by the prevailing grief of the times. So on November 1,2001 I cut my locks and submerged myself into the national grief. I felt like a lamb to slaughter.

November 1st is The Day of Onslaught and true to it's title I was besieged with the grief of those that were lost. Besieged with the grief of the loved ones left behind. Besieged with the pain that was inflicted upon the Heart of this nation. A stab at our national freedom. I was not Enjoying the go. I was in the midst of the Hurricane a category 5, my very existence was in jeopardy. Our national spirit was in jeopardy.

So I called upon my training that I received in the Marine Corps. Breathe, don't panic. When all around you is falling apart. When an ocean of turbulent emotional events are approaching the precipice, leading to Hell's chasm. Keep the days meditation in mind,"The stillest part of the Hurricane is it's Center". Keep that in mind as you plummet over the falls, so that Peace is at home within your heart.

After the wake of 9/11, after picking up the many broken pieces and soothing the many stricken hearts. Despair has settled into the heart of this nation again, as we face the worst recession since Roosevelt. Once again the nations people are stricken with grief. Once again darkness is the prevailing pall seeding the atmosphere. What now?

Well, it takes a brave soul to volunteer and become the light. Am I distressed? No. Am I somber? No. Am I frightened about the future? No, I am Enjoying the Go. I am sitting above the dark clouds beneath, on the Rainbow of Faith. Enjoying the grace, "In God We Trust". It's on every piece of currency that is in every pocket of every citizen across this great nation. In God we trust, aren't just words it's the ethos of this nation. It is the manifesto that is embedded into the spirit of my generation.

Generation X , we the born Flower children embracing the spirit of '69. The spirit of freedom. That freedom from the paralysis of worry and fear. Why, because we hold the Key to Peace and Happiness. No need to worry. In God We Trust.

So on November 5th, Fabutron in concert with Charmin will be "Enjoying the Go". Embracing the spirit of America, freedom.
What recession?
To a Taurus, it's always a Bull Market.
So embrace the Saints, and like Saint Christopher, you too can Enjoy the Go.
Vaya con Dios.

Fabutron in Action, reason with passion

God Rests in Reason, God Moves in Passion. It is with this passion that I go forward making plans towards the success of Fabutron.

At this stage in the game, I have started to market my product amid a quivering Heart. I have met failure and I'm found undaunted and emboldened. I think three times before making a move. In a recession resources must be used prudently. Prudent Economy. The wills sense of purpose galvinizes itself to the heart of the heart. Keeping the path steady although the footing is unsure. Never loosing ground. Like a trail smart Boyscout I refer to my compass many times along the journey to keep true North. This is one of those times.

I pull out my compass enscribed with the word Fabutron on the front. In back it says Fabulous Future. It reminds me of what Fabutron is.

Fabutron is an online financial social networking gaming site based on the medium of Astrology. I look at the face of the compass and the arrow is pointing true north with Scorpio overhead. Todays meditation reads," Life itself may be only a series of illusions - why not pick those which brings us the most enjoyment? "

Funny how that ties in with the Fabutron game. I'll be turning 40 and 1/2 on the Fourteenth of November. My second birthday wish is to squeeze the Charmin, for a mere 10k. Fourth is the new Twenty, so you get twice as many birthday wishes. So squeezing Charmin will be a blessing for Fabutron. Can't give into recession woes.

So in short astrology says that I should pick the reality that I find to my enjoyment. Computers offers a gateway to that reality, thus being online. Financial, is another aspect of reality. While money won't make you happy, not having it certainly isn't a rose garden. So Fabutron provides an alternate stream of income.

Not wanting to put the cart before the horse. The financial aspect is always something I am mindful of in my day to day development of this service. For if Fabutron can not generate revenue for it's clients it fails it's mission statement.

Social Networking. In the late eighties, early ninties we Urban youth were encouraged to network. Networking at the time was usually focused or done for the reason of furthering education or occupation. At the time, to this twenty-something eyes it seemed all too clickish. Alot of peacocking very few producing anything notable. No real merging of the spirits towards enlightenment financial or otherwise.

These days sites like Facebook, MySpace, eHarmony offer the websurfer a way to socialize, usually with family and friends. If you get a chance you might get lucky finding a date, hopefully the rgigt one. Or have a bit of entertainment playing Mafia wars or Worlds of Warcraft. But what is an adult doing if not simply wasting valuable time. Playing idol games.

Fabutron isn't idol time wasted. By utilizing the medium of astrology we are merging the " paranormal " with the mundane. I say paranormal because to many astrology seems very occult, mysterious, incomprehensible. In my study of astrology I can understand why some would liken it to magik.

Astrology does live on another plane of existance. That existance is the "awareness" of the energies, forces, the waves of the universe. Those things that affect you simply because you are not aware of thier existance. Like the pull of the Full Moon on the tide or the shadows of the New Moon in the mind. I call these energies the Emotions of God.

These emotions are represented in the elements of Earth, Air, Water & Fire. These vibes are both given off by ourselves and by others. Thru astrology we will learn how to become more aware of them in a format that is both entertaining and beneficial to your bottomline.

I'm a Taurus, I understand that people always want to know "what's in it for me". At Radio station Wii-FM, we will unravel the mystery of you and this thing called astrology. You won't have to become an astrologist to know how to use astrology for your benefit. You won't have to become the Weatherman to know the weather, rain or shine.

At Fabutron you can find love, friends, opportunities, entertainment. Hopefully in these time of woe perhaps you'll even find God, whatever you imagine S/Him to be. If not perhaps just Peace and Happiness, for God lives there too. As well as inside each and every Divine one of US.

" Where there's a Will, there's a Wayne"

Clash Of The Titans , Over The Aquarian Falls

Hola America, It’s Feroz.

It is now 2:46 a.m. since I made the video , Fabutron’s Hail to the Chief. That Aquarian flow was like Niagara falls strength at Angel’s falls heights. Magnifico, Si.

I’m writing this now, so I can take my time ( I wrote this first long hand before typing) to write and not feel rushed . Today feels like liberation. It feels like I’m living my chart. A Taurus to a Libran balance. My chart is designed like the seesaw. A toy for kids and although I’m 40 in age, I’m 14 at Heart! In spirit eternally Young. The Divine Us.

The meditation for Oct. 9th, 2009 was “ I saw a boat slowly cutting it’s way through a frozen river and at the same moment a friend said,’Love breaks the Ice’”. It is the Day of The Penetrating Gaze.

I have a particular love for Barack. Barack my Brother, I Greet you with a Kiss:

We are intimate , you and I.

I greet you with a kiss.

We, like Reflections with Six degrees of Separation.

Ever closer do we come to merging.

I greet you with a kiss.

My brother of mother Earth’s birthing.

I greet you with a kiss.

A brother of Peace , a brother of love.

I greet you...

Speaking with omniloquence. Flowing with Peace’s eloquence.

Surging, gaining force and Speed.

Warp Speed against Wars antiquated steed.

For War will be obsolete, when he becomes socially unacceptable.

...with a kiss.

A brother Titan with a lightning fist.

I greet you with a kiss.

Who sees thru the heart of War, as though in a mist.

I greet you with a kiss.

In defiance to Wars restless state.

You thru acceptance do abate.

When bravely focused putting forth your heartfelt determined devotion;

are scorned against by that green eyed sloth's emotion.

I could kiss you for the recognition,

for my plight, for my jihad of respect vs. derision.

I greet you with a Kiss

So, I just want you to know,

Fabutron greets you with an Aquarian Flow.

I greet you with a kiss.

Amen.

Of course taking into account swine flu being what it is. That’s what happens when love breaks the Ice. Please sir not closer than 3 ft. Mind if I smoke? The nerves , you know.

I keep thinking what I’d like Fabutron to become, but the Now, is the part that really tickles me. I guess every 14 year old still wants to be tickled. Like every woman.

It’s Sabbath Morn and I’m playing “I’m Every Woman”, catch it Michelle. You too Michelle. Again the Hermit enters the scene as the forgotten one. I speak the words of Michael. Where in the world are you going without the village shaman. Not too far. As he sits.

The Bull (May 14th) is stubborn, so the Lion (Aug. 4th) speaks softly to appease the peace. The Bull rises and trots to the point, Semper Fi. Like a lamb to slaughter. The Apis Moon. The love of the Heart , Faith.

That’s what the Nobel committee bestowed you with, my revered brother Barack, the faith of the free world. As a reverent Boy scout should both have and be worthy of the honor of receiving. As if by second nature. Brother you should be “Looking good and feeling Gorgeous:. That’s what Wonder Woman would say. I can’t help it I’m Gay.

Today Now @ 4:07 a.m. is the Day of Prudent Economy. Prudence is wise/careful conduct. Thrifty, even shrewd in planning ahead. For the sake of Radiance and Rosebud, Ambria, Rashawn, Rey’s two Disney’s Princess’s and Terra’s next generation, I join your vigilance. I am married to your hopes, Mr. Obama.

Life is a series of Serendipitous Transformations. I suppose ultimately ‘til death.The only constant in life is change. It is advised to stay midstream whilst within the stream of Universal change. To know the oscillations of Universal Consciousness.

I skipped a few days ahead up ‘til Kevin’s Birthday. This is a homage to our Silver anniversary of friendship. The Day of Gracious Ease, Oct. 11th speaks,” T.V. is an electronic attempt at telepathy”. Live long and Prosper indeed.

Indeed we are all tied to the Wheel ( Oct. 10th card). It is the Justice, (Oct. 11th card) of the Hanged Man (Oct. 12th). Happy 39th Birthday Kevin, Gen-Xer. Whose chant on the Mali beads is “Inspiration”. As for meditating on the days thought,” What would be the most difficult single thing for YOU to live without?

For God is inspiration to my Jihad of the Soul.

Amen

Feroz

10/10/09

@ 4:50 A.M.

Is Gay, GOD's folly?

"It sure is" says Pepper La Beiga. A drag queen that I met at a ballroom in Harlem, the summer of '87 I was 18. I was attending my first Gay Ball. A Ball is a Gay event that is supposed to honor gallantry. Like the famous French balls of Louis XV. However these balls had events which people vied for. Like the events of Face,Body, Butch Queen in a Skirt, Mr. Sister (lesbian),etc. The names were katty. But so is gay humor.

It was in this environment that the ability for seeing a spade for a spade paid off. I learned " the art of the Read". The Read is verbal , the read is brutal , the read brings the fire. The read incites family feuds. Straight Men can not hold up to it. I can attest to that. A seasoned girl let's the knife pierce deep , so she could attack with the most bitter cold.

Is gay God's folly, yes I know it to bee. For I laugh with him daily. For the persecuted extol the virtues of freedom. Just thru thier yearning, of freedom. What a paradox. But that's it most people don't understand the nature of a paradox. So naturally rail against one when it comes to life. Causing "you" to extol the detriment of Courage. That's why I, Mahmoud Ahmadinejad, live in the land of the free and the home of the brave. Cowardice has no Home, here.

Today is the Day of Defiance. Wonder Woman on Her Chariot in front of the White House recieving orders from Obama. The order read "Avenge US, get those Bastards". Madmoud the Face of War has her orders. Yo' Bin, yo' ass is on the list too. Princess Diana will enter your chambers veiled as decreed, like the Cobra in the fields. Wonder Woman was a Gay boys hero.

The only thing that will stay the sword of Damocles from Wonder Woman's execution. Is Feroz, the fierce peace of God. Oh by the way Mr. Bloomberg I'll be seeking my seed money from you soon. Yom Kippur. Five Prayers, I'm going to have to look into this.

Mahmoud I saw a You Tube posting of Gays in Iran. I don't know what those particular gays go thru. But I'm an Artist I can Imagine. I know the oppression that we face here. I can only imagine it's five times worse. Okay three times, only the Catholics are worse. The Jews aren't so bad, but they too have thier faults. As do We All.

Being gay is a fault. One may call it a character flaw. For it is the most unique. It affects a segment of the population that seemingly goes against all natural law. Seemingly Gods law. To be Fruitful and multiply. Straight people see that multiply as in children. As a gay man I understand, the multiplcation as sharing. Such as sharing your knowledge, time, space, love and acceptance. Simple things that are freely given to family.

Tomorrow is the Eighth, The Day of Romance. The days meditation is ,"Astrology is the psychology of the Universe". As a Taurus like Hitler and Saddam, when faced with hatred, I can reflect it back boldly. That's what puts the fierce in Gay. Madonna, Madonna, Lourdes No the Bitch can't Vogue. She stole that from her gay friend and didn't remember a bitch when she got her Coins. Madonna is Shady, I don't See She. Her! Hater...Hater...Hater... Yo' ass can't do no Bayter.

But I can do better. You walk light of foot when you take the high road. All that hate weighs one down. God puts in the faces of men on earth, a man looking like, acting like, idolizing, exemplifying, honoring the nature of Woman. They hate any effeminance. Covering it up with heightened Bravado. For fear of revealing weakness. And here's a man for all the world to see exposing his. A weakness in the comfort of Men. What an act of defiance not only to the eyes of men but surely to the Eyes of God. You feel you must villify it which just adds depth to the drama. Splintering the drama amougnst different religions just gives it more facets. It allows the Jewel to capture the light, just so. Such is the nature of fear.

There are some Kings that thrive on fear. Fear is an abberation to the Nature of Love. Rest in Peace

Question if Christ was the Lamb of God, absolving us all of our sins. Then doesn't that include Gays? If you have to think, you're looking for a lie. As for Prop 8 naysayers globally, " grow up ".

Yes God is laughing, laughing at all you here on the world stage. I'm quite sure that even reading this some will still say, No.

Anywho... Like a baby, the conscious mind must sometimes be put to sleep during waking hours ( it's 7:47 am ) Shalom. Amen